What is Grief but Love Persevering

Safe to say it’s been a while and I am sad to say we return in grief. This was not the plan. I planned to come back with a post sure to blow you all away but I cannot. Not right now at least.

Anyway, This feeling is all too familiar, all too familiar.
I’m challenged about what to do?

Where do we go next?

We end up going back to church to pray, to find comfort in Jesus- he alone truly understands this, this sorrow.

So does his Mother, Mary so we take comfort in praying the rosary.

I can’t think of anything else right now other than gratitude.

My heart is full of love toward you, Lord, for her. You blessed her with light, love, joy, peace , beauty, talent, courage and Grace and she used every opportunity to share those gifts with us.
We had many days and nights of belly-bottom laughs, sometimes to tears. Oh how I will miss those days but you know all things and I know you will give us the strength to go on.

When Daddy passed, I fell into what I’ll probably call a reading spell. I read anything and everything I could find on grief. Looking for comfort. Which I’m not sure I found there, but what I did find was company. A friend, if you will.

I remember C.S Lewis saying in his book: A Grief Observed, that even though he misses his wife so much. What would it mean if he had her here with him still.
It would mean she’d still be suffering. So can I say I truly love this person if I wanted them here knowing that would mean their continued sufferring ?

Aaaaaaahhhhh that hit hard.

Anyway, Lord. You know what is best.

I am grateful for the time I spent with them and all that I learned.
I’ll continue taking care of my husband and changing diapers.

Thank you for her life,
We love her very much.